Still trying

to put my thoughts into words. This has been the hardest week of my life. I can't explain to anyone how sad I feel at the passing of my grandfather. I hope this gets better.

My grandfather passed away

My grumpy grandfather passed away at 11:56 Thursday evening. It has affected me more than I could ever have thought. In my life I have lost three people close to me and this is by far the worst.

My great grandmother passed away 12 years ago, she was so wonderful and loving and I loved her a great deal. She was 89 and had lived a full full life, 6 children, 22 grandchildren, 24 great grandchildren and even a few great grandchildren. It was hard, but I accepted it.

Two years ago this month my grandmother passed away, it was sudden, unexpected and a punch in the gut. It was the hardest thing I have had to endure. Until this week. Back then I knew that I had my grandfather to hold on to, to take care of. My grandfather was so special to me. I will post more on this later.