My grandfather

is one of the most miserable people on the planet. I love him dearly, but he makes me want to strangle him.

After my grandmother passed away 2 years ago he took a serious downturn in both physical and mental health. He has never been the most physically healthy person, but it got worse.

The family has constantly fought with him to get out of bed and move around. He has been sleeping upwards of 15 hours a day. When he isn't sleeping, he is sitting at the dining room table smoking cigarette after cigarette (this is a man who has had a double bypass, pacemaker/defibilator, collapsed lung, emphysema, etc) Still smoking a pack a day.

Now he has gone into the hospital because his heart and kidney's are failing. His legs have about 30 lbs of extra water in them.

He called my father last night from the hospital, screaming that he needs someone with him all day. He expects us to take days off and sit in the hospital with him all day.

Needless to say, we cannot do that.

So he had his 91 year old sister (he is 77), go up there and she has been sitting there all day.

Now I spoke with him and he told me she is driving him insane.

I'm at the end of my rope with him, i try and be patient, but all i want to do is yell back at him. He put himself where he is, smoking and refusing to move his ass out of bed.

Fiance?

I hate the word. My girlfriend and I have been engaged since Thanksgiving. I have yet to refer to her as my fiance. To me it is a stupid word. It's really hard for me to incorporate it into my vocabulary when i refer to her. I don't mind people knowing that she is going to marry me, but I think it's a ridiculous notion to assign a specific word to her other than girlfriend. Is she not my girlfriend anymore? Did the girlfriend go away and fiance appear?

My girlfriend

has a blog. I am constantly tempted to read it and find out some inside scoop. However, to weigh the benefits of reading it, are the negative aspects. If I were to find something out on her blog that I didn't like how would I confront her with it. Additionally, if I were to read it, would she really post truly?

She says she wouldn't mind me reading it. She describes blogging as a cathartic event, she rants, raves, and pours all her emotions out. I like when she is calm, so I resist reading her blog all the time.

My New Other Blog

Good Morning

I have created a new blog. My other blog focuses on politics and current events. Lately however, I seem to be having a lot of additional issues that I want to right about. The original blog has evolved into political issues, so I will post everything else here.